Testing 1, 2, 3.

Hello, hello.

Today my day was filled with summarising lecture notes and reading textbooks and studying in general for my exams starting tomorrow. Which got me thinking about my exam routine. Regardless of the type of exam it is always the same and sadly for as long as i can remember has always been that way. My emotional roller coaster can be broken down into segments.

Stage 1. The week leading up to the exam. The pressure is starting to mound and its in the back on your mind. Like the horrible conveyor belt that is always at the beginning of any roller coaster. You going steady, slowly and the anticipation is starting to get to you. You know what is coming but still get a shock when it comes.

Stage 2. Day before the exam. (Today). Serious study time. All notes are in order and rereading over and over again begins. Consistently checking textbooks and ilectures this is the loop de loop part. You are going forward but seem to be doing the same thing over and over again in the hope that it sinks in!

Stage 3. Night before, serious cramming. Facebook chats with people in the same situation, often in the wee hours of the morning do offer some relief but generally speaking by this stage you are sick of the material, starting to doubt your knowledge and generally cannot sleep because your mind is a constant stream questioning you knowledge. Your a little nauseous with nerves as your stomach twists once and again into that familiar knot. (Considering i have had a chronic stomach ache for the last week, i am dreading tonight more than my exam tomorrow.)

Stage 4. Morning of exam. No breakfast, stomach is still too upset. Panic starts to kick in, do i, don't i, i do, do i? More questions. Still seeking answers. Generally you get to a stage where you stop stressing and offer yourself reassurance with the line, if i don't know it now....

Stage 5. In the Exam. Reading time. You read the questions, you either know it or know your going to have to make something up. Hoping for the best either way.

Stage 6. Exiting Exam. Simply the best feeling in the world. One of sheer relief, in knowing there is absolutely nothing you can do to change that paper whatsoever. Nothing.

I am soooo keen for Stage 6 right now as i enter Stage 3 of cramming. But by Thursday my two exams and assessment will be in and i will be fine dining with good friends and then it is Easter and it will all be ok.

For now I'm going to finish reading my notes again, re freshen with a shower, relax with half an hour of The Big Bang Theory (hopefully it isn't a repeat) and then kick back into it again!

Hope everyone has a lovely evening / day tomorrow. Considering i have to do a test and then study for one on Wednesday and hand deliver a parcel in between, chances are i wont get a chance to jump online tomorrow.

So have a lovely mid-week weekend and i will hopefully be back Friday, recharged and armed with some interesting thoughts.

ciao for now.